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How long will this stupid cough linger? Thought i would go for a walk with my boy got around the road and had to come home because i was coughing so much. Its not just the cough but the fact i cough so much i throw up. Not something i am keen to do in public! I just wish it would stop.

This post is to see if i can simply get over the 11,000 view mark so if i have thanks for looking!! Not to mention i'm bored, bored, bored!

My ex has not paid child support now for going on 12 months. The reason this is so strange is as far as I know he is on a centrelink payment and up until 12 months ago it was deducted from his payment. The only thing that has changed is the fact that he went back to school but essentialy he is still recieving the same payment from the same place its just austudy and not the dole. So how is he getting away with not paying? I don't care about the money I will get that out from the get go. I give all the money I recieve to my daughter as it is hers and up until the new changes it was only $6 a month anyway. It has risen since then because he does owe money. I got a letter from the agency the other day stating that he had asked to vary the payment frequency from once a fortnight to monthly, great I think but he would still need to pay it for it to matter. It makes me wonder if he pays for any of his other kids (he has 6 two are my eldest). He doesn't pay any support towards our other daughter as he says she is not his. Although I have recently heard that he has conceded that she is his child (how nice of him). Now this is my other point of the day. He has 6 children with 4 different mothers, now if it were me with 6 kids 4 different dads I would probably have been shown on some tv show as to why the baby bonus is a bad idea! But because it is a guy it seems to be ok. Which one of us would be more likely to be called a slut (for want of a better word)? No not him he was just sewing his wild oats maybe the girls should have had better self control. Yes I am in a bad mood with my ex I haven't seen him in nearly 11 years thats how long it has been since he has seen our eldest and he has never laid eyes on our youngest although he has been shown pictures of them both recently. His mum came to me before christmas last year to ask if he could start seing the girls I said I didn't care that it was their choice either way I would support them. Well they both said yes the youngest stright away the eldest took her time to think and said yes but she only wanted to go the once and meet him and if she was happy she would see him again. Guess what???? thats right he has not ben any where near them I asked his mum and she made excuses for him. He had been estranged from his mother and father for a long time and had only just come back into their lives. So it was all a bit much for him to see the kids as well. (picture steam coming out my ears here) A bit much poor bugger what a hard life it must be, he hasn't had to do a thing for these kids all their lives really and its too much to see them just once in a park or something? God if I see him in the street I don't think I can be held accountable for my actions. My anger towards him controlled my life for a long time and for a long time I think I still held the hope of us being together (his mum didn't help saying she wished it were so) But I finally let it go a long long time ago and now he is back in the background and while I can safely say I have moved on I couldn't love anyone more than I love the man I am with and who is as far as I and my children are concerned their father. So he had to come back now and he still plays the stupid little games of long ago all I can say is if he ever reads this (gee I hope) don't mess the kids around they deserve better than you ever gave them and me in the past. 

I was just baking some scones when I started thinking about how I did this as a kid with my nan. We didn't do much together but I do have fond memories of baking scones. While I was thinking of this I was thinking about how there is always just that little bit of dough left that we always ended up forming a sad little semi scone from. Now nan always told me this was the best scone and my brother and I would argue over who got to eat it. It just occured to me that prehaps it's not the best scone it was just a way to get us to eat the ugly left over one! Could I be right? Was nan tricking us into eating an inferior scone? Were we dupped? Which then got me thinking of all the little white lies I tell the kids to get them to eat there food and does everyone do it? Is it wrong? Am I scarring the kids for life because I tell them that water chestnuts in the stir-fry are bits of potato??? Who knows one day they may realise what I have done and be so emotionally scarred as to never want to speak to me again? Highly unlikely really!!! Does anyone else use this technique? If so what do you use? At least i'm not the parent who tells the kids that the ice-cream truck only plays music when the ice-cream is all gone!!! (but only because I heard about that one too late in life)!!!!